For my entire adult life, I’ve had a serious struggle with a lack of discipline related directly to my eating habits. During my childhood and teenage years I was naturally petite – weighing no more than about 105 pounds throughout high school. Every day consisted of fast food from Taco Bell, Jack-in-the-Box, or whatever fast approach to food my voracious appetite called for. (I am a small person, but I could probably out eat grown men!) Even my meals at home or restaurants were filled with not much more than pasta, bread and sugary desserts. It’s hard to believe now, but I could eat whatever my heart desired at that time and still fit into a size zero. I do consider myself lucky to have had a very high metabolism, but ultimately, it lead me to become an addict of a high fat, high carb and high sugar diet that so many Americans have fallen prey to.
As the years passed after high school, my slim boyish-figure turned curvy…and for the first time in my life at 21, I actually had to bite the bullet and exercise! As a child, I was used to being physically active in dance class, but this was different. I had zero workout clothes, no clue of how to begin exercising, much less how to eat better. So, I started slowly. The first thing I did was purchase a pair of athletic shoes and a couple of workout outfits. Easy enough. Once I had my gear in place I did my first jog around my parent’s neighborhood. I think I made around the block about 3 times before giving up as it was summer in Arizona (obviously, it’s not the best weather as a beginner in exercise endeavors). Jogging just couldn’t keep me interested, so after some encouragement from friends, I started to hike early in the mornings after my sunrise shift ended. Although I absolutely hated the motions of preparing myself for hiking, I found out that I actually enjoyed the journey. There’s something about feeling all the pain and anguish of pushing yourself uphill – and then reaching the top of the mountain to look back on how far you came. At that time in my life, I had no idea how important that feeling of accomplishment was. I took for granted the things I should have celebrated and realize in my thirties to celebrate even the small milestones.
Although I realized how satisfying it can be to exercise, the eating part was a much bigger hurdle to overcome. After so many off and on diets, I know how terrible I am with eating healthy on a consistent basis. The problem always rears it’s ugly head after a week. I eat healthy and then am faced with a teeny-tiny thought about a cheat meal. At first, I try to push the thought away, but in the end, the cheating always happens. It starts with a meal. But, it turns into a cheat day and eventually a full out binge weekend of fattening, buttery, gluttonous glory. By the time I think about it, I’m back to the old habits and have gained back any weight I lost in the previous days. This leads to feeling disappointment and regret. And my way to bounce back from those emotions – MORE FOOD!
As I said before – I’m in my thirties! I still haven’t committed to eating and exercising the right way ten years later. I usually start and stop within a week or maybe two. I am getting more stuck in my ways as every day passes. I plan on having children some day and the thought of passing my habits to them, kills me. So, for my future, for my kids’ future — I have to be better. I have to actually commit to changing my life. If you’re reading this and it sounds familiar, I ask you to do the same and call me out on my shit when deemed necessary! 😉
First things first, my top goals for July 2017 are:
- Eat healthy/low carb at least 5 days out of each week. In the past, I’ve always done the chicken, vegetable and brown rice diet thing. But, carbs are my absolute downfall! So, I’ve been reading about low carb/ketogenic diets and am trying my hand at it. Check my Instagram Posts for updates and inspiration – let me know if you want me to post any recipes that you see. My IG handle is @kimiwashere. 🙂
- Track all meals on Lose It app. I highly suggest you check out this app. I am not sponsored by them. I have used Lose It off and on and much prefer it’s functionality over the popular, MyFitnessPal app. It’s FREE and so freaking easy to use.
- Exercise five days out of the week. Not quite sure the breakdown of my fitness regimen, but I’ll post an update once I’ve figured it out on paper.
- Wake up early and exercise first thing in the morning. Early mornings absolutely suck for me! I am a full fledged night owl. But with it being so damn hot in Arizona, I have to wake up early in order to exercise safely.
I have other goals I’d like to implement, but for now this will do. I’m the type of person that over does it and tries to change fifty different parts of my life at once. This time around, I really want to see permanent changes, so I’m easing myself into each goal. For now, I will be a little less ambitious, but more focused!
Are any of you implementing some health/lifestyle changes? Any tips or suggestions? Let me know!